Still feeling good

 I'm not sure if this throat problem is heartburn or a respiratory illness. Just a slight irritation at the base of my throat after a coughing fit last night.

The chicken I had was quite peppery.

I called Maryland Aunty and her sister was there. Also another Maryland Aunty. They were having sister time. Felt a little awky because I don't talk to second aunty much. So that call ended.

Then called HS friend. She having family time. Their new move came with price increases they didn't see coming. She says they'll be in the red if partner doesn't get a job. 

Even though I'm solo-lifeing right now. And even when I've been watching my dating shows, I'm not feeling the strong urge for romance. It's like when I was in the last stretch of pharmacy school. I already had the moment that I wanted to start a journey with someone. So when I'm at the last step, I kind of just want to finish how I started - solo.

I'm this close to finalizing my move, so I might as well keep going. Now that my hormones have settled, I can more clearly see my committee members' life choices for what they are - just different lifestyle choices. 

I saw a classmate I never thought I'd see again. He looked exactly the same, yet was a whole father and husband now. But I still see just a more stressed and tightly wound version of the 18 year old I used to know.

I don't feel like I'm missing anything. It's just like when you work at a company and everyone has a different job. It just doesn't feel like we're running the same race anymore. And finally, I'm starting to be okay with it. 

It feels less like this thing that was "taken" from me or that I never got the chance to experience. Just think of all the things in life you didn't do but still lived and life was okay. That's just kind of how it feels like - that last cookie, the last piece of cheesecake, the last hug, one more tv show...nothing actually happens after the moment passes. 

I'm in a nicer apartment now and I'm happy. Although the app is saying I have to move out by the 9th. Not sure what that's about as I didn't receive a notification or anything, which is odd. It still shows available, so I might double check with the community liaison. 

Since I already know this apartment is nice, I'd rather stay here longer than risk the apartment in the next city. 

I like how much of an expert I was at moving stuff. I got settled in pretty quickly. Got groceries and was ready to relax after 12n. I'd be happy to stay until the 12th and then make the move to the next city.

But after some vacillating, I'm finally coming around to the idea that the move to Newtown is happening. I'm halfway there. 

I like my life.

It was nice to be able to talk money outloud with a colleague though. 

Oh, I'm still stalking the trip to Cabo. And I think I'm going to do it. I just want to keep celebrating me. And if I'm able to get furniture and stuff all squared away... I think moving in should be pretty easy. 

For Cabo, although I want to mitigate some risk by spreading out the points, I think the easiest will be to pay for a roundtrip ticket full price. And just use $700 worth of points for the hotel. It turns out I have a $50 credit on Expedia, so that was nice! So 3 days for about $600. Not bad.