I have trouble living my life and working...

 I can't tell you how many times I've checked my work calendar over the last few days. Even today it's been 2 or 3 times. 

There's no meetings.

But when I'm on an active project, I just feel on edge. Like I could be asked to do something and then have to do it. Or don't know how to do it. Then panic... and then obviously the sky is falling.

Grrr.

I technically have enough time today to pack up the house and be ready to go, but I just can't seem to get out of bed. Am by bed, I mean the couch. I've been on the couch for over a week. 

It just feels like so much to do. I ought to be thankful I don't have a bunch of meetings to take up mental space, but instead I'm stuck in the overwhelm.

Glad I got some of my errands done. But if I could just motivate myself to get this packing done. Grr. I've even tried bargaining that if I can just focus and get my work and personal tasks done over the next 3 days, that I can have the weekend free.

But still nothing.

So I check my calendar again. I feel frozen. 

I need to brush my teeth. Pretty sure I'm getting a cavity. 

I'll ask my therapist if I should send a text to the interviewer. I don't feel as strongly about it as I did over the weekend. Nope, I have way too many other thoughts occupying my mind right now.

What's making me anxious

- packing up the house

- my active workflow

- the future.

What can I do to ease some of my anxiety:

- fall asleep until the day is over...

- that's all i want to do.

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