A fitting end to the month...

 Or should I call this - I'll never be a child star, part 2.

Yeah, I'm a recovering secret-love addict. I just kept waiting for something magical to happen. I realized at 27 that I was not going to be discovered on the street and be a famous person, namely a child star. Shirley Temple dreams were laid to rest. Not easily mind you.

Yesterday, I backslid a little. Looking for connection, attention, anything. Well we know the trigger is - milestones, or special events. I want to tell someone. That's how the marketing works. That's the culture I was born into.

So yeah, after the fiasco of apartment 1, I'd successfully moved into apartment two on my slow travel roadtrip to Newtown. 

Since you all are my only audience, it's getting harder and harder to disguise the names because I want to talk outloud.

But I am again reminded... the rest of this journey is a solo one. There's no big reunion of my friends. There's no turn I can take, or text I can send that can return things to the way they were. 

Once I can fully realize that, the better. 

I love living in a nice apartment, friends. It's refreshing. It's nice. I feel special. I like sunshine in the morning. I like high ceilings. I love a dry air. I love the sun.

So I'm doing this journey alone, but it doesn't have to suck. 

There are parts I can enjoy. Like getting excited over cut fruit at the Publix and spending a bit too much. And being happy I didn't have to drive all the way to Whole Foods. Cuz Publix had way cheaper cut fruit and vegan cookies! Win. It's the simple things.

I scarfed down ribs and dairy free nacho chips for supper. With a side of fried chicken.

TLC didn't hold my attention much. I guess I should probably refrain from watching relationship shows on Sundays. Whoops!

Haven't found a routine yet, and that's okay.

I slept on the couch, and didn't cough. Yay, Pepcid!

The next 2 days will probably be stressful. But I got some snacks to help. And I wasn't even thinking that far ahead.

But then I get to take a trip, and all is well. I'm very tempted to book my Cabo trip. But it feels frivolous. The biggest concern is cashing in my points for hotels.com gift cards. I can't undo that. Otherwise everthing else is refundable.

Maybe today, I'll book the airfare and see how that feels.

I'm just ready to move on. 

It's been really motivating to see my investments go back up. Yay! I'm not making any more moves until I get closer or hit my millionaire goal. Yeah, I said it! You know when I get nervous, I overshare!

Yes, Bob, final answer - I want to be a millionaire!!!

Married to Money.

I don't have to keep proving myself to an invisible audience. 

Life can be good.