Week 7

Can you believe it! I made it 7 weeks. And the dust has definitely settled.

Two people are already transitioning to other roles. It never stops at the Call Center.

I think I'm stepping into how I see myself here.

Well, anytime I start something new I see how it's different from where I was or how it could be better.  I've been speaking out about it and it's really gone nowhere.

I decided to stop doing this. It's just needless frustration and kind of endless.

Even with the baton being dropped and things falling between the cracks, the machine rolls on and nothing bad really happens.

So I'm done "complaining" to my manager.  Plus I think she's sharing this with my co-worker, so that's not good.

I also got the low down on the history of the Call Center. It was both amusing and telling. And affirms my decision to take a step back.

I guess this is kind of a vent session.

I feel on the outs.

I got a little hopeful about having a conversation about stopping a mailer from going out. Hard no.

Then there is Wunderkind who was hired without the relevant experience, but "he's smart and a hard worker." This is after the manager said the problems they had with the 2 previous directors was their lack of experience. Hilar. The humans.

I will say I did get really excited to talk about my idea, but this was the affirmation I needed to keep my mouth shut.

I was actually even thinking the other day, what will happen if we have to go back to work full time. I think if I feel the way I do now (which is neutral), I only want to consider moving if I'm within 6 months of when I plan to leave (end of March 2022). That's my hope. So like no earlier than Sep 2021. But then when I think about it ...18 months would be manageable, I suppose. So, there's that.

Basically, the high has worn off. This is just a job, and it turns out the chaos is just a little bit better hidden than in my last role. Oh well.

I started finishing my table that has been laying haphazardly in my kitchen. And the piping still doesn't fit. This is after I added a plank to make it fit. Turns out the pipes with flanges end up being different lengths.

I was meant to go to the laundromat this weekend, but I think I'll spend some time with my feelings instead.

Feeling blah.