Oh, what a night!

So most of last night into this morning was spent ruminating the work week that just ended.

You know my brain has spectrum characteristics.

There is this giant broken database that houses 400 documents that no one is really reading and so they're creating new ones or updating one but not the other. So if you pick A instead of B, you might not get the update that was only published in B.

It's a hot mess. And to find the person responsible, it's like a game of Hot Potato or Not-It!

And of course when you work for The Man, everything is a process.

I'm starting to remember the things I learned in teacher's college. Not everything is a group-worthy task.  But everything here requires someone else.  I get that it's hard for one person to see a widget from design to production, but gee golly I sure wish that person existed.

I wish there was someone that just knew how the widget worked.

I think I'm also a little mad at myself that I didn't catch a glaring duplicate process. (And someone else did.) #prideful

I could have read the documents more closely, but it's just so much especially when I don't know really know where things are in the process.

I just completed my 6th week at New Job, and I still feel just as lost as ever. I'll start learning one thing and then the learning kind of stops and there's nothing to build on.

I hate the phrase, "play around" (in the database). My learner's brain doesn't work like that. I don't know what I'm looking for. I don't know your process (apparently no one does).

I need structured examples. I need a problem to solve or an error to recreate. But if I don't know what I'm looking for it's a futile effort on my part to "play around" in a database. What is the problem I'm trying to solve or a process I'm trying to create?

It just seems like the problems I identify that are a general impediment to my ability to flow, are so big and the processes to fix them are so broken.

And our vendor, ugh...we just indulge them with all their requests to update documents. I definitely want to change that. I think during our last meeting, the vendor said we'd done either 40 or 60 updates at their behest. That's insane.

And my co-worker team seems to think the supplier has the final say in our process. Ugh no, not to be crass...but they work for us, we tell them what to do.

I'm hoping this rant will stop the broken record in my head.

And I still have a kitchen island/table to finish constructing. Oy!