Friday Brain Dump

 I've had a few post ideas running through my head, but I can't remember them now, so here we have a Friday brain dump. 

• Getting slightly more worried about identify theft with all the accounts I have open and mail not getting forwarded. Keep hearing warnings and seeing fail safes for money laundering. 
• When I stick to it, keeping friends and family emails to Wednesday is awesome. Business (personal business) emails to Tuesday. Have yet to formally write out my calendar. Just bits of pieces everywhere.

Work Life

• Had some highs and lows. Still a bit of an emotional rollercoaster, mostly on my end. I want to make an impact - a big, splashy, sustainable, positive, acknowledged, meaningful smart impact. The pressure of this is making me cower in fear ...fear of making no impact at all. That will have to be okay.
• Getting used to not trying to change everything. 
• Sometimes I feel left out of things. Decided to take this as a win = less things I'm responsible for. 
• Sometimes feel like one of my co-workers has a hidden agenda. 
• Sometimes feel like the go-for.
• Wonder what my real job is. Cuz I feel a little overpaid to be an admin (#nocomplaints). 
• Talkative people really get away with saying not much in a lot of words. 

Other Life

• Car was slow to turn over. I immediately thought it was my battery, and prayed I was right. Felt dread at the thought of having to purchase a new car. Not just the expense but the decision making, and a little regret for letting unnamed family member take my sainted aunt's car when I know she meant for it to go to me. Luckily, one morning I just woke up and decided to take it to dealer. It was the battery. They replaced it for about $200. Grateful that the expense does not affect my ability to feed, house, or clothe myself. 
• This house has so many bugs! I can't keep them out. Oh well, this is the death house. This is precisely why I chose it.

Lost my train of thought. Not sure what is on TV to watch. I kind of want to make/order some nachos and make some cookies.  

Oh I know... I decided for now I'm either just a little socially awkward or a high-functioning adult on the spectrum. Then some comedians say things that make me feel normal. Example, one said there's nothing better than cancelled plans. Yes!  Then one said, do you remember the time you realized you didn't have to live life to the fullest? Yes! I remember it vividly. I was out with friends roaming around downtown and they were about to go another venue. There was a Lifetime movie on that I wanted to watch. And I said, I have to go because my Lifetime movie is on. I didn't look back!

It makes me smile just thinking about it. I'd like to think if there were something especially compelling, I'd leave my house for it. But, meh. Who knows.