And yesterday was already kind of a not bad day. I think it was yesterday?
Well one of the days, I vacuumed the upstairs including the actual stairs; I did 2 loads of dishes; and returned the router to Spectrum - this involved standing for 45 minutes outside in cool wet weather to save $5.
I'm not even sure they're going to take the $5 off my account without me having to call someone because I think I actually have to change my Internet plan. In fact, I'm pretty sure they're not. The lady at the store was of course less than helpful and by the time I got in the store, I was out of resolve. Part of it was my fault, I used the wrong words, and by the time I realized it I was already out of the store.
Then I got a call (as I work in a call center)...and I lost my train of thought...
But to follow-up on the post I just published, I actually re-sent 2 emails to a colleague who had left them unanswered. This did trigger a response - success!
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Then 2 days passed...
I started writing this post Wednesday morning. It's now Thursday at 9p. Two work shifts later and I'm having a little bit of trouble winding down my day. Still desiring a daily download (preferably with another human). Until then, it's me and you, dear blog.
Today was rather busy much like yesterday. I logged 4 calls that took me much of the day to document. I actually used the suggested question template and it helped with my call flow and documentation, so I'm thankful about that. I'm still letting my pride get in the way of doing the amount of data entry the project is asking for. It's just unnecessary and tedious and needlessly frustrating. It just plucks my nerves...anyway, let me stop lest I go spinning.
The team meeting this week was especially demoralizing, and I'm feeling checked out. But it's way too early for that. So, I persist. I'm trying to humble myself and do the job I'm being asked to do, but I just don't want to.
My job is fine and I am lucky to be employed.
I can't help but countdown the days to my next job (of which I am pretty terrified).
I started teaching a colleague's kids 2 words a day in 5 to 15 min increments. It's a win if he can even repeat the word of the day. The first day was a disaster. He had a meltdown and was not having any of it! None.
I think I made a mental early retirement note somewhere to add summer school/camp seasonal work to my early retirement summers. I'll need something to cover my $900/yr in facility fees to the power company.
I made crockpot terriyaki chicken with a powder seasoning packet. Edible.
The same colleague from above is expecting 2 bank bonuses to hit tomorrow- those were amusing to get because they involved some shenanigans.
My routine of the last few days has involved watching 1 - 2 episodes of Jane the Virgin on iPad in bed before my shift starts at work. The last couple evenings I followed up with a few episodes of Sweet Magnolias after work. I like the routine.
Haven't tried much to watch TV during the workday because the phone lines at the Call Center are picking back up.
I finally stopped checking the mail daily because I realized I'm expecting nothing. (My stimulus check is not getting forwarded, unless I ask my old leasing office to check the box and personally mail it to me. Yikes!)
I actually made the effort to speak to a customer service person to get a bank bonus application approved. That's a small win for me!
Still haven't been able to login to my new job's onboarding site. I think once that starts working again, I'll be more motivated to actually start plotting my wardrobe. I want to get as much of my personal errands done as possible before Jun 15, preferably by May 30, before the mental load of the new job hits. I'm still working under the presumption that I'll be moving no sooner than July 4th. I'm trying to think worst case scenario...and can't seem to think of when the latest I could be moving is at the moment.
I tried to call Lowe's to see if they were back to offering in-home installation but there was no answer. I didn't want to frustrate myself, so the plan is to head to a laundromat this weekend.
I still wake up feeling a low level of apprehension or unease as though it's Christmas Eve and there are no decorations. But I can't verbalize what has got me entrapped in this sense of disquietude.
What am I looking forward to/ on my agenda:
- Figuring out my hair
- Getting laundry done/ going to laundromat
Upon reflection, this is more a list of what outcomes I can control at the present moment. I think just this general state of limbo - between jobs; between housing; COVID limitations on everyday life - is contributing to my mental unrest.
I keep trying to treat it like a long staycation, something I usually like, but the new job has really added a new layer of unknowns.
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