8:14pm - Another Work Week, done and dusted

I couldn't log-off without reflecting on my week, or at least the day, or at least the last few hours.

I was looking forward to so many things this week. Some of these things include - receipt of the stimulus check, my new credit card, perhaps a deposit from an outstanding transaction, churning some more bank bonuses, completing onboarding paperwork for my new job, maybe some clarity on my next stage in life.

I'm not sure where the stimulus check is these days. I really wanted it direct deposited - not only to meet a requirement for a bank bonus but so I could track it since my address changed after my last tax return. I mean who even knows what happens if I don't receive it. I just hope it's not stolen. Good thing I hadn't really earmarked it for anything.

I'm giving Chase another 2 week grace period to send the credit card because I know they have been busy.

I'm chucking the deposit from XXX down the road.

I've reached the max on bank bonuses because now I just get denied, so I'm not sure what to do with my hands during free time at work. Hmmm...

I'm stumped about the onboarding paperwork. I just can't log onto the site. But I know with large corporations, once you veer off the happy trail, it's hard to get things corrected. I guess I can only hope it's fixed before I start. I am happy that I at least have written confirmation that I'm cleared to start. And on Day 1, I'll have access to real Workday, so that'll be good.

As for my life, I made some mental notes to re-assess quite a few things.

Washer/ dryer - check back in 2 weeks (May 30)
Furniture for new house (incl couch, tables, robovac, etc) - hold off until living here permanently; will move leftover earmarked money to House Fund Savings Account.
Security system - probably purchase in 2 weeks

When shall I move?
Right now, I'm estimating having to be on site in The City no earlier than Mon, Jul 6 (two weeks after my hire date).
With that as a tentative goal, I would anticipate moving the weekend of Jul 4.
Obviously this is a moving target, but it gives me at least a timeframe to start from.


Personal life
I missed my old college roommate's birthday by a few days. I used to feel really bad about something like this, but these days I just let it go. I definitely don't feel the pressure I once did to be a "good friend." Everyone I know has made it abundantly clear that their friendship with me is low on the priority totem pole. 

I have identified an emotional space I would like filled. I think I would benefit from having an interaction with a human where I could download my day for 20 or 30 minutes to an hour at least 5 times a week. If I were to imagine it, it would be an easy low-stakes interaction Sun - Thurs after work. I'd love at least 1 free day (Saturday) where I'm not obligated to talk to anyone. And I know Sunday after 5p is always an unhappy time - the dread of the upcoming work week, so I'd definitely want the interaction on that day.

It would be a space where I felt seen and heard. It would be regular, structured, and reliable. It would be one where I always felt good after wards. I would be willing to be that for someone else.

I don't know if this space exists in the current world because humans are so tricky and so unreliable - myself included. But if it did, I sure could use it.   I tried integrating friends back into my life beginning in 2019, and it just didn't produce the results I desired.