A Friday and A Break-Up

So yesterday, I was having some strong feelings about my job giving me the ole - it's not you, it's me speech unexpectedly.

Today, gratefully, I feel different. I'm about halfway through my shift and I feel as though I'm about to commit an act of betrayal. You see, today is the day I would need to submit my 2-weeks notice. Yes, folks, it's two weeks till New Job.

Breaking up is hard to do. I've never been in a relationship, so I don't have first hand experience, but this just feels bad. Just the fact that they may not have any idea makes me feel like I'm doing something dirty. Are they going to be confused? Am I going to get a lot of questions? I am cowardly sending the letter via email at 8:01pm, 1 min after my shift is over. I wasn't sure if I needed to send it at start of business (9a) or what, but I opted just to wait till my shift was over so I wouldn't have to field any reactionary questions.

Looking back...

I quit my teaching job over email and never looked back. There was no response from them. I quit my non-profit job, and I don't remember it being an issue. I think I may have gotten one or two questions from co-workers, but I don't think I felt any anxiety (at least not that I remember). The company was already laying people off and I was going back to school so it didn't seem "wrong."

But now I'm actively leaving one company for another. It feels adulterous somehow. Oh well.

I'm just glad the mood has shifted to something where I feel like I am the one doing the action and the action isn't being done to me.

Money talk

I spent the morning figuring out my money movement plan for an account I hope to have approved. I was feeling neutral about it until this morning. This morning, the Savings account was denied because they couldn't verify my address. So I re-submitted with the address on my ID and it was instantly approved. This made me hopeful, so I re-submitted for the Checking Account. Nope, still under review.

Since it wasn't quite a denial and I wanted to be ready and not have to carry around the mental load of money movement tasks, I went ahead and charted my plans. Essentially, I have to push and pull about $4-5k out of this account every month for 6 months. I can't keep that in my head and live, so I wrote it all down.  It made it seem very doable. And it was exciting.

Other news

This morning I also got very excited at clean dishes. The dishwasher is like the best magic trick. Recently, I realized the 1 detergent tab I was able to use in the dishwasher in my studio is not cutting it in this family-sized dishwasher. Three times now I've had to re-run it with dishes that came out still gunky.  My choice is either to run it with less or use extra detergent. Obviously, I'm going to try the latter. It may take some finagling to get 2 tabs to fit, but so be it.

This weekend I have 2 scary shows to watch; I might make some brownies; and I feel completely unmotivated to go to the store. Actually I don't mind going to the store, but I just feel like my list is too short to warrant a trip - cooking spray and air filers. We shall see.

Oh another thing. We had an informal Teams meeting just for talk time with our colleagues. During the call, our Big Boss was talking about a new client project and he was trying to figure out questions that might come up when that call center goes live and how much staffing they might need. And in that moment, I felt like, I know! I actually wrote a short paper on that. It felt nice to get some internal validation that I actually have some experience and may be able to contribute something. Of course, I didn't speak up because I've fallen out of the habit of participating in group discussions, but I hope to regain that skill again.