i quit summer camp

 oh boy... am i the problem?? i just quit my summer camp in LA from my layover in houston. a part of me wants to get it out because i didn't really talk it over with anyone except charles. but a part of me is like what's the use..

maybe i'll make a therapy appointment. i just did, phew. feel a bit better already.

i went ahead and made a walmart delivery order of some foods i might enjoy eating when i land. so i'll land, uber, shower, and rest. and think of food later.

maybe i'll cook today, maybe not.

i'm running on 3 hours of airplan sleep and whatever janky sleep i got on campus.

basically, i've been overworked and confused and my body started getting tense around one of our bosses. to the point i started avoiding her and then today (Tuesday)... i was thinking fine i'll stay until session 1or maybe i could tough it out to session 2. but then i called into the principal's office after she already made me tense in the morning and that's kind of what i told myself just that evening...i'll know it's time to leave if i receive any kind of disciplinary action.

and that's exactly what happened. 

i have noticed the last 3 work incidents have been with a certain kind of white woman. 

so yeah... i have no choice but to take my burnout recovery seriously.

i feel..a bit confuse of what the implication for this is. 

but i don't have to worry about that for now.

the next thing to concern myself with is whether i want to return to LA for my cruise. 

as of now...we're looking at spending another $250 to get myself there in August...and it's going to be hot.

or just save my last $250 and cut my losses at the $540 i already spent and be done. 

i've already kind of lost interest in casino cruising anyway.

so there you have it.

still rich and fabulous!