mediation 1

 so i had the meeting for the informal coaching plan

honestly, i don't want to do this job

but i think it's just the injustice of it all

but i should know by now....sometimes that doesn't matter

i think that's the most demoralizing thing

well i have an end date...oct 29...

so to me that's 3 more paychecks

i'm not fighting

but my ultimate goal is to see if i can last until bonus day 2025

that is honestly a stretch

currently, i'm thinking...

finish the 30 business days

request fmla until we are off for the holidays

so i at least get that free time off...

then, figure out how to last 3 more months....

that's the tough one...

there's just too much money on the line to give up just yet

i'm seeing more of my therapist and my prescriber is starting me on prozac...

selling my sanity for drug money...

this is where we are folks...

the thing is ...i don't really see myself doing bonus nachos without the first gig...

pride?

i don't know...if i'm going to quit....i kind of want to quit everything....