Sunday Morning Musings, Teen Moms, and Some Money Matters

 It was light out at 7:53a this morning. Just as quickly as it started getting dark early it already feels like daylight is returning earlier and earlier. Thanks, God!

Oh gosh, I miss church. I miss the church of my youth though. I think after leaving my home church, I never had a church family again. 

It's so nice to see people being really entrenched in community. I think people definitely leverage their children to accomplish social networking goals. 

It makes me happy when my boss gives me things to do. Although these days I'm starting to feel more like her admin. So my job and Job 2 used to be just one job and only after a recent re-org did my job exist. The person in Job 2 recently ended one of our nurse programs, and my boss made the comment - doesn't the person in Job 2 know that if the programs end she'll be out of a job. 

That's what I've been thinking about my job as well. And since I got here, I've been thinking we only need to really keep 2 of the 5 programs. That's been part of the reason I've been keeping my ear open to other jobs. My next goal is to do a good, nay great, job until bonuses come out. I was running out of steam but I want to gear up and hang on for 3 more months.  Then I want to start actively looking AND applying. I've scanned Indeed twice already and with a co-worker reached out to HR twice for internal openings. 

So if being her personal admin keeps me on her positive output radar, I don't mind. 

Some things I know about myself:

- I don't really have any original ideas.

- I'm a great copycat that can generate process improvement ideas. 

- I've always thought I'd make a great "vice-president," you know the supportive role. I don't know if I've been afraid of leadership roles because I don't think I'd do it well, the pressure, or fear of something else. These days it doesn't seem like you actually have to be that great at your job. So I don't know if my position on this is changing. But I do still tend to prefer or find more comfort in supportive roles. 

Speaking of knowing myself. I missed the chance to get my Hulu for $0.15 this month because I didn't pre-pay my bill on time. I am a set it and forget it kind of person. Even if it means all of my finances aren't optimized. I tend to do tasks in a batch so I can turn that side of my brain on for awhile, complete the tasks, and do the next thing. 

So yeah, managing multiple credit cards to get rewards point is not a high enough return for me at this point to keep it up. I think I'll just pre-pay the next 3 months on internet to get the 5% cashback and be done. I called Spectrum and they're raising my rates anyway, so I don't even know if I'm sticking with them after March. 

I don't generally watch all the variations of Teen Mom because I don't support normalizing that kind of behavior. We all eventually normalize things we see on TV, albeit different things for different people.  They have children cussing on TV. I don't love that. 

But Unexpected has been a little interesting to have playing in the background while I do other things. Boy are we all not looking to find acceptance and belonging. I get it. So many broken people and mismatched love relationships. 

I was definitely a boy-crazy teen but the thought of actually being in a relationship wasn't the goal. It was just the feelings and talking about the feelings with your friends. It's only after experiencing the loss of my parents last year that I've really started to consider a romantic relationship. And honestly, I feel the way I do about being vice-president. I mostly just want a friend. Like a nice next door neighbor--well that maybe lives a couple blocks away. 

I've come to enjoy my personal space, but I wouldn't mind being invited for a cookout or a nice walk or a hang every now and then. 

Oh as for putting distance between me and some frenemies. I'm slowly but surely getting there. Then the other side of my brain is saying, if you get a few more requests for chats in the next month, I might start giving out my number. Boo. 

I'm going to watch TV and eat some plantain crisps - just saw those at Trader Joe's.  They're tasty.