Back at work and a Housing Update

First day back at work after 6 days off. It was awesome. I think after having done it, I prefer doing a Wed to Wed vs just a straight Monday to Friday off. I know some might prefer having more consecutive days off in a row with the weekend as bookends, but I prefer the illusion of having 2 weeks off. I like that last week was a 2 day work week for me and this week is a 2 day work week for me.Winning!

It's a sad feeling to know I like my job the most when I have little to no work to do, to the point that I get annoyed when customers call. Mind you, I work in a call center. Sad, but true.

I didn't think the week off had worked for me because I still cried most days, but I've seen little benefits here and there. For example, when someone mentioned my aunt in an email, I felt distance from the grief. I still teared up but it didn't feel so fresh.

And clearing out both my work and personal inbox took about an hour, so that helped make it feel like time indeed had passed.

Housing Update
One thing that wasn't in my inbox was wiring instructions for the closing that's scheduled for Monday.  It all seems off. In my wishful thinking, I imagined God was giving the whole world a pandemic to get me to NOT buy the house. But I checked in with my realtor and lender, and the closing is set to happen as planned.

I still haven't received Final Closing Disclosures and wiring instructions, so this is interesting. I asked the internet, and I think the rule/ law is they're supposed to provide the Final Closing Disclosures at least 3 business days ahead of closing. And Saturday is considered a business day in real estate. So today was the 3rd day. It's almost 8p and nothing.

I mean I don't actually know what my recourse would be if this mattered to me.

I was trying to talk with a colleague about what I would do if I didn't sign on Monday or couldn't move this weekend. She was no help. It's hit and miss with her. I need to really figure out her optimal place in my life.

I don't really know what my Plan B is, and I am not convinced it's part of some larger plan. I think it would just be really inconvenient.

I don't think I would be homeless because the rental office is saying we could renew our leases with no increase. But the minimum renewal is 9 months. So that would suck.

I could probably consider just a 1 month renewal for a premium. Renewing here and for 9 months just seems so out of the realm of possibility.

Interview
I was thinking maybe God was parting the heavens because the pending job interview with Big Pharma was my golden ticket out of my current life. I was hopeful because it was going to be a phone interview with just one person and probably Friday (tomorrow). Turns out the earliest they can schedule that is Wednesday (two days after scheduled closing) and it went from a 1:1 to a panel interview with video conferencing. That instantly increased my anxiety and mentally took me out of the running. Even if I was adequately prepared with all the questions ahead of time, the panel feels like interrogation and flight-or-fight mode kicks in. It's far more difficult to perform under these conditions.

So that's it. Plan for the weekend: not pack, possibly make cupcakes, and maybe run out tonight to get some plastic utensils and lunch meat in preparation for the viral apocalypse.