May 15

 So it's a Wednesday. Just did a presentation it took me a week or 2 to prepare for. I did it. After I was prepped, I felt fine. But then a few minutes before, I got nervous stomach.

Been trying to decide what level of performance anxiety is normal vs wanting to quit my job.

I'm trying to just get it in my head that quitting before my quit date is not an option. On the good days, this is easy to do, but other days, I do toy with the idea.

There is a part of me that feels like I faintly feel the way I did before I quit Call Center 1. But I don't think it's that bad. I have plenty of downtime with this job at the moment, so this may be as good as it gets. I know I can get through this, just still figuring it out. 

I don't know if it's also just the excitement of waiting for Christmas. 

In other news, still planning to do a 2 month swim aerobics challenge for Jun 15 to Aug 15. I'm excited about that. 

Then maybe get my hair done after. 

In July, also tentatively planning on some regional activities- like spending time at the lake. 

So I think it'll be a fun summer. I have some cool activities planned.