Last night I couldn't sleep. I had to reset the timer on my audiobook two or three times. And after 2a, I got up and took a shower. I was mostly scared because I haven't changed the sheer curtains in my bedroom yet. And I've been watching true crime shows on Investigation Discovery. Not a good combo.
What's keeping me up at night?
Facebook! Believe it or not. I am trying to stay focused and not friend everyone I ever knew, but it's hard when I get no replies. First I sent a message to one person. Then after 5 minutes, if no one responds, I search someone new. So last night, filled with angst, I turned the internet back on on my iPad and reactivated my email to check my Facebook responses. Nada! And I had been doing so well keeping internet and email out of the bedroom.
I am giving myself a week and then I'm deleting the account. I am really trying to return to my neutral position. But even the lack of response from people I haven't talked to in decades feels like a rejection. I am just too emotionally labile for this. My goal was to reach two old friends that I met in college in 2001, but I couldn't find them with a name search. As I stated, I'm giving myself a week.
Also, I had to respond to an invite for a quick chat from a recruiter for my fake job app. I am trying to mentally prep myself not to take the (coming) rejection too personally, so I'm doing things a little out of character to emotionally distance myself. For example, my responses have been one-liners so far instead of the usual formal email responses.
Home making.
I forgot I was thinking of getting a robot vac. And now that I've upped the ante to getting 4 credit card (bonuses), I think I might just get one...or two (robot vacs). Then I got lost in a rabbit hole of reviews. Do I get a cheap one? The name brand Roomba? Or one that rates highly in the reviews but I've never heard of? Anybody have a robot vac they can personally recommend?
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