free and angsty

 it's amazing how awesome i feel thinking about how few days i have left as working days and how angsty i felt just thinking about dealing with one of my managers.

the thought occurred to me to take the screen out of one of my windows and accidentally fall out.

weird, right.

i'm trying to hang in there for the LTI and bonus payout next march, but i wonder if the angst is worth it.

it is.

i know it is.

the payout is less by about half since i will be requesting unpaid time off, but for now it still seems worth it. especially if i can keep myself busy

i guess i'm nervous they'll let me go?

but why that bothers me...i'll never know..

i'll take all the drips i can get in my nest egg!

otherwise, ..well it's so funny how decisions seem so hard but afterwards you wonder...what made this hard...

i think i just wanted that round number...

but i'm so OKAY without it....more than okay...i've been dreaming of being able to say i'm retired...

i think letting go of the broom-making job (ie, call center #4)...is going to be so awesome on my last day...can you believe that was ever a struggle to get rid of! wow.

...feeling very...'i can see clearly now the rain is gone...'

let's just say i'm loving life right now...

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