it's been in the making awhile... as far back as when i started FIRE one could say...as far back as last spring when whispers of job insecurity were floating around..
but now i'm here...
wow... woke up at 2a and again at 5a..
been looking at flights ever since..
people.. my one fussy aunt... she's mean... she just is... i think it's jealousy wrapped in bitterness and confusion and anger and insecurity... abandonment...dreams unrealized... she also insults me...
but i'm the dummy for coming back...
i want more for myself..
she insults me.. i take time off... she's in her 60s...but she's always been that way...
this is family i guess... i've distanced myself as much as i can...
i need an emotional safety net... so i keep on with therapy...
i'm picking insurance on the health exchange particularly for this reason...
onwards...
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