and all is good again!

 Phew... while I spent quite a bit of friday and saturday thinking abou ursula (new name for my work colleague), sunday I found a bit of respite as I was social. Yay! and my recliner came in. I'm officially an old person!!!

anyway, i waited until this morning after some thought to send an email...and even decided to wait until I met with my mgr for our 1:1.

He started the meeting and before i got to my list of items i wanted to discuss he told me that ursula is moving to another submission and....get this!... i'll be taking over her old submission as a lead!!

it's bittersweet...

- well, it means it's confirmed i'm not working with her for the short term or the long-term = yay!! because i don't have to work with her much after this week AND i don't have to have what would be a tough conversation for me!! and i don't have to worry about repercussions. !!! 

- And it means that i'm still trusted with more responsibility...so my big concern with ursula's shenanigans is that it would affect my job/ job security; but if they're entrusting me with more responsibility, then, that makes that moot.

It was quite a bit of relief all at once and i was parsing together why it all felt so good in real time. but i could immediately feel relief since i'd already identified my pain points.

so the email and conversation seemed wholly unnecessary. yay! and i'm just so proud of myself for sleeping on it...even though it cost me some hours of sleep..it eventually resolved itself. i'm okay being in this phase of my life where if i'm 'patient' enough....non-essential things work themselves out. yay old age.

so yeah, i do still have some breakthrough anxiety....but luckily it doesn't become too widespread that it feels like the sky is falling! 

so yeah, wanted to share the good news. 

i was feeling so good, i baked some TJ banan bread muffins..can't wait to munch on those shortly. And I tidied up the kitchen and ran a load in the dishwasher!!

overall feeling really good!

and with the Gift cards off my plate, that's been suchhhhhhh a relief!!

i'm even thinking of ordering some african food - yum!

anyway...back to enjoying my happy life as my co-worker used to say!!