Sunday check-in blahs

 I have counseling in 15 mins on a Sunday. I wish it were 5p, but I'll give it another week. It just feels like I spend all of Sunday waiting for it. 

Maybe I should go back to Mondays. I don't know.

Not sure the last time I blogged. Without as many anxious feelings, I don't feel like getting my anxiety out via blogging.

I've been social at least twice this week which is great. I think last weekend I even sat outside and read an entire book almost in one sitting. Definitely in one day! Haven't done that in awhile. But the weather was so nice!

I'm excited that Newtown has provided me an event calendar so once I get plugged in, I'll have things to do even if just for the sake of getting out of the house.

Don't know if it's the Sunday blahs but I'm feeling hints of job insecurity. And Co-worker wants to make me feel better, but I still feel it. Especially since I was kind of right about returning to work and my last position being eliminated.

I'm thinking of seeing if I can do the project management certification course as well. Got the idea from co-worker. I'll email my boss on Monday.

I just want to have options. I don't think I can sell myself as a Widget worker doing what I do now. And for whatever reason, I don't see many jobs for what I do.

It's just a weird transitional time at work, and I hate the limbo. Especially with a new car payment. I spent quite a bit of mental energy trying to work on my numbers.

Gosh, I'm lucky I have a padded saving account. Honda wanted $5k in downpayment. Plus insurance was about $1200 for 6 months. (I paid $600 for the YEAR in my old car!). And I still owe another $1500 for tax, tags, licensing, so that's just annoying.

I had to appease myself by writing out all my anticipated expenses for the year and my anticipated income. 

Without savings, I'd be in the hole! 

Granted, this is given that I'm still sending about $3k to investments, so maybe I don't need to be so anxious. Because the other option would have been just trying to get another used car and hope for the best. 

I just hate the car dealer making so much money off me. 

And I've been having weird GI symptoms. I don't know if the water is making me sick or what!

Just another case of the blahs.