Feb 25, 2020: Another one of those days

Originally published/last updated on myearlyretirementjourney.com on 25Feb2020.

Today was one of those days.
Got a $5.5k medical bill from 2018.
Womp, womp. All I saw was my Roth IRA for the year.
Had to go back to my FIRE Tracker. I guess everything is going to be okay.

With The Thing that happened; moving; buying a house, and now this, I’m curious how it all pans out financially.

It was a day of bad feelings yesterday.
Some stayed into the next day.

I need a massage.
A vacation.

This adult stuff is hard. Caring for other people is hard.
I feel like I’m back in a foggy daze.

I’ve run out of things to hope for.

I just can’t seem to reach an equilibrium.

Work is a low level annoyance that is amplified when other things in my life become stressors.

I am officially stressed. I generally hesitate to use that word, but I feel stressed. I just feel like each of the actions I need to complete involves someone else and interaction with other people is like a minefield for me.

On my mind:
– Disputing/paying medical bill
Current thoughts on that: default is prob try to spread the payments out over 2 years if they’ll let me. 2k a year does not seem as derailing as a $5k lump sum since there is some semblance of a $2k cushion in my budget.

– Some payout I was expecting to maybe get some breathing room and perhaps furnish new house has already been eaten up

– Job

– Resolving financial issues for Aunty MERJ
– 2 outstanding job applications
– Possible broken family tie that I don’t want to expend energy to repair
– An uncertain future