I can't believe i never have to work again...ever

 I just can't believe i never have to work again...ever. 

It's Sunday and my body wants to feel scared and sad about tomorrow - but there's no reason. Nothing is happening tomorrow to feel scared and sad about.

So now it moves down to lower priority things- relationships with other people and vacations. 

Can you relearn how to be happy and just be. 

My body is so conditioned to distress that it's trying to magnify my peace into a problem. This is going to be interesting folks. 

I finally reached total financial freedom and my body is inclined to reject it. 

Where is the bootcamp for this.

How to be alone? How to be happy? How to reclaim solo-living!

I am giving myself all the grace and guardrails and the room to make some fumbles. There are going to be some old habits that just don't make sense.

Right now things that I need to reframe

- vacations - they have typically been used as an escape... get away from work, unplug... but if that's my everyday... does it still make sense? it's gotta add some value... 

- friends - i have more time to think about them now...luckily with my new address and identity.... it's not worth the risk to dig too far into the past... i wonder if the cure for this is to stay busy with other mindless things that aren't work... that might be something i need for the transition...in fact i came online to register for some free cycling classes...; minor things are being ruminated on when i don't want them in my life at all...what do you with people that you don't like 100% of the time..; i think my default is to let them choose how they want to be involved in my life; and i get to accept or reject it; no nagging as the 'getting to i do' book says. it's for romantic relationships...but we can try it out..

in terms of social events... my default is the path of least resistance - free food, structured activities... i tend to not enjoy roaming activities; i like sitting...unless it's a nice day and i just want to be outside...

i'm toying with letting out some frustrations with people in my life...

basically my current friend group has sort of disbanded... and there have been some unkind remarks... 

"you're an adult, you can figure it out"... that's just rude...

some cold greetings.. 

i guess this is just data...

what really changes for me?