Dec 9, 2019: 2 Months At New Job, Still Terrible

Originally published/last updated on myearlyretirementjourney.com on Dec 24, 2019. 

So it’s been two months at my new job. I’ve been taking calls for three weeks now maybe. It was so busy that I hated life.
Today is not so bad. So it’s not all bad.

But it was mostly bad.
Of course, we have to say thanks for the things we take for granted: I live in America, I have a clean, safe place to live and enough things to eat. I’m technically getting paid exactly 6 figures.

So yes, take this rant with a hefty dose of salt.
I just wanted more for my life. One reason I left my last job was because I felt like I was going backwards, I was stalling, and it just seemed like life was happening around me. I also thought I’d be able to find another job a whole lot easier…(more easily?).

It turns out I was wrong.
The job I have now has been filled with a litany of moaning and groaning on my part. A lot of it is pride: I thought I was better than this. Green-eyed monster: Why is everyone making more money than me? Why do they get to have cool jobs and fancy titles and not me?

Well pride and jealousy/envy landed me at another call center. Common sense would’ve kept me at my old call center where things had started to improve.

I just feel so severed from my life. I’m so unable to comprehend this outcome that I feel as though I’m watching someone else’s life go by.

Is this the silver lining to what would have been 4 months of unemployment? I guess so.